Well in blogging land anyway.
This week I:
- worked out EVERY day before work, then did the SSS with Mandy and Jess on Saturday.
- kept my calorie count in control
- and I lost 2.2kgs!!!
And then Saturday hit....OMG.
I take complete responsibility.
We were at the Nelson's when the wild weather hit and the anxiety from having been in similar situation in the Roma floods and the loss of a beautiful woman in last February's flood had what can only be discribed as a post-traumatic-stress type reaction. Unfortunately despite all my hard hard work, my default setting is still to fill that emotional pit with food. So I drank four glasses of wine, at rice crackers and dip. Admittedly the boys helped eat the crackers and dip so I guess it could have been a lot worse, but it has made me realise that as long as I'm in control its all good.
As soon as there is a situation I can't control with strong emotion (negative) attached I still default back to my emotional eating habits of the past.
So what to do?
I am not sure, but I sure as hell am not giving up. No fricking way!!! I think I just need to have a plan in place for next time, because there will be a next time. Another situation in which I automatically revert to that old behaviour. I'm not sure what I'll do to try and head off this situation next time, but i'm thinking I need some affirmation/Mish sayings on cards for in my wallet or something like that. Something easy to carry on me at all times that in times when I need a swift kick or reminder that 'Hey, that's not who you are anymore Em, you are NOT going to eat that'.
Whatever I decide I need to do it soon, because while I am not giving up, the situation did shake me. I just couldn't believe I was still capable of such mindless eating.
So I'll see it as a learning experience and move on. And keep on JFDI-ing!!